The first Friday in Lent

Tonight I did something in observance of Lent that I’d never done. The parish I’ve been attending offers Stations of the Cross and Benediction of The Blessed Sacrament each Friday in Lent. Last year I pondered going, but tonight I went. For someone raised in a Lutheran tradition that eschewed anything that “smelled” of Rome, this was a huge step, even though my Episcopalian experience of the past 20 years has been “high.” Both the Stations and the Benediction were offered in my previous parish (only once a year and separately), but for a number of reasons, I never partook. The Stations exist in a number of forms; here’s one that’s close to our observance (though without the “Global Justice and Reconciliation” heading; yet the rector’s bidding of prayers was very much in line with that concern). Emotion about Jesus’ Passion isn’t something I’ve ever felt—and on top of that I’ve blocked out so many feelings over the past several years, especially in spiritual matters. So what I did was to concentrate on staying open and trying to connect—this is the current task of my spiritual journey. What did I feel? That Jesus’ sacrifice and resurrection can be instructive for me. Maybe I can’t experience it now, but I can engage and dare to be transformed. There is so much on which to ponder in these observances. The meditations and prayers are all drawn from Scripture, and I know from my Sunday School and Confirmation classes of decades ago whence most of the texts are drawn. With the Benediction immediately following, Resurrection is directly tied in, as Pope John Paul II tried to do when he attempted to add a 15th Station—Resurrection. Following the rites, we had a simple non-meat soup-and-bread meal, with a presentation by the rector on questions submitted for consideration during this time. The rector is a walking encyclopedia of spiritual and liturgical Anglican/Episcopalian concerns, and I learned tonight, as I have every time I’ve talked to him, that what may seem to many to be empty, pointless rituals are extraordinarily meaningful and significant. When I returned home, Chicago’s Lyric Opera was near the end of its opening-night broadcast of Poulenc’s Dialogues des Carmélites on WFMT (another time I’ll brag on this station—it’s world-class, with virtually no peer). As a pianist who has accompanied many singers on opera arias, I was never interested in Dialogues. It just seemed so—well—dull. Nuns talking? But a couple of months ago I heard the last portion of another production of it on WFMT and was utterly taken. Then I learned that the Lyric was presenting it for the very first time—and another time maybe I’ll discuss how a world-class opera house could have ignored such a masterwork. No, wait—I already know—probably the same reason as mine. Or, also, some logistics, such as cost versus appeal. Already in 1956, when the opera was composed, musical styles had changed considerably, and Poulenc not only returned to a somewhat older style but also imbued it with his devout Catholicism. So tonight I got to hear again (live) the portion that had so struck me. And I remain struck. The libretto is based on a true story of martyrdom during the French revolution, when not only nobility but also religious orders were targets. The last portion is the condemned nuns’ walk to their death, and they sing as they approach. One by one, their voices are silenced with each thwack of the axe. The march to the end is relentless and musically haunting—though I’m still listening to WFMT as I write, my brain keeps replaying the final motif. Even hearing it on radio (admittedly a medium that often removes me at least twice from the music source), I find a huge lump in my throat. I don’t know how Lyric’s scheduling works—there are so many factors to be considered—but presenting Dialogues during Lent seems a Godsend.